A huge part of my life was spent turning my visions into costumes and interactive worlds, I travelled the world as a performance artist for many years. I often had some kind on internal fight as I may end up working for some very strange companies and things, that was when money was involved and then there was so much free creativity too .
.In that time I saw sooo very much, so many people, So many faces.
Some of my work dived deep making sonic instruments and harps with beautiful women and blood. So people would see beauty.. and look a little deeper and see the pain and the blood, It was a soundscape of dance and was intended that people see the beauty in pain. There is beauty when we go into our pain and explore it, it is where we find our magic, our souls, our feelings and authentic power.
I see and feel that so many of us have disconnected and fragmented because of pain and to feel is the way home. Yet this is to be done with so much care and awareness of the nervous system.
My journey and the amazing oportunity i had to travel the world with my art, took me to meet tribal people and raise money to make an aid project there. with many others support, I returned alone into the depths of brazil to see what i could do to make change.
What I experienced taught me the deeper truth of what was causing their suffering, and what I could learn from these beautiful people to go home to change the only one I could change. myself.
At a certain point it was the Monarch butterflies in mexico that woke me to see a different way than performing, as there really were deep thing in me to heal. To see the next stage of my path. I let go of all and became very sick.
It was my womb, the connection to sacred blood I was healing. At the door to the hospital was a huge statue of a monarch butterfly as I began a conscious shamanic path ( I believe we are all on a path).
When I was in the coma years later I was back, with the butterflies. I am writing a book about the experience now, its beautiful and deep.Here is a picture too of a painting I made a couple of months into my hospital term …. healing.
Im writing these stories as at this time now im in Mexico, deeply preparing for the next part of the journey. I do believe my art is finding its most authentic expression. I have some big visions..as I focus on really deepening some sacred crafts and finishing my book
